When's My Turn?

I know it's not the healthiest thing, but I've sure been feeling that way for a while now. I don't want to be like this, but I can't seem to shake it. Am I really that self-absorbed? Is there something to that feeling? I don't know. I thought I got rid of the "someone pushed the pause button on my life" feeling a couple years ago, but it seems to be back. Am I really that slow to learn, or is this something else? Does this even make any sense?