This Is Killing Me

So the plan is to wait until November 1st to actually propose. (Okay, so the original plan was to propose on the 24th, but a birthday party got in the way of that.) The thing is that ever since I bought the ring on Saturday, all I want is for the work on it to be finished (they're doing some custom work and have to actually mount the diamond) and to propose. The ring isn't even supposed to be done until next Tuesday, but I'm already getting impatient.

I keep going back and forth on when the best time would be to talk to Teri's dad too. I guess that depends on when I decide to propose. I want to have as little time as possible between when I talk to him and when I propose to decrease the chance of Teri finding out about it.

What makes it even worse is that I can't tell anyone anything about it. I suppose I could, but I decided a while ago that I won't because I don't want anyone knowing about it until Teri knows. Can I just go to sleep tonight and wake up 3 weeks from now? That would make all of this a whole lot easier.

Maybe to keep things in perspective I should just remember that if you had told me at this time last year that I would be getting ready to propose, I would have had a hard time believing it. That's probably a better focus than thinking about how I've waited long enough already.